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Friday, November 20, 2009
well.. my ops is over le.. nw havin a small holiday ba.. but soon goin back le.. sianz. hmm.. quite a fun rest i havin... some ups n some downs.. downs r losin money!! ARHG~ fuck sia.. lol. play mahjong n lost 250 in juz one night.. power rite? lol.. den juz nw play 3 match of billard.. lose some more.. really nth to say le.. haha.. the thought of goin back camp n doin so many things.. i damn sianz.. feelin damn tired le.. nv hav enough rest.. plus sun i need go back early.. WTH lo.. cb..
well.. today is a gd day for me ba.. 20 nov 2009.. another start for me ba =)
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9:49 AM
Monday, November 02, 2009
hey all.. juz came back from camp.. if u guys know abt my trainin schedule u guys also will as sianz as me de lo.. haiz.. really damn fucked up lo.. really nth to say abt it le.. hmm.. haiz.....
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4:29 AM
Saturday, October 17, 2009
gettin sick of my life sia.. dono y i feel i am livin in a world of mine... tryin to get out n reach to pple.. but it seem nt to be workin.. n pple r nt helpin at all.... i feel so small.. y cant pple 4get things n start anew sia.. pple say me childish.. i know in a way i am.. but is nt tt i wan to be.,. is nt in de control of me.. if i hav de abilities.. i confirm will do de... haiz.. damn angry sia.. y don those pple think abt themselves.. r they childish also? everybody is childish de ma.. stupid bullshit.. fak sia.. i been very tired le sia.. had a fucked up week at camp.. come out still see pple de cb face. fuck lo.. i owe u wad? knn.. sick of this fakin world of pple sia.. pcb de.. y pple can be happy n enjoy n me nt sia.. i am nt even given a chance to prove my self at all lo fuck.. pui.. cb... fakin pissed off sia..
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3:20 PM
well.. juz came back from outin wit my elder n his frens.. damn funny la today.. hehe.. i sat in of of his frens car.. den until when we reach our destination.. when he was abt to park.. he was check for blind spot n checkin for de back.. den he damn fakin shocked.. he saw something behind him( i was sittin behind the driver sit all de while).. he thought he is see-ing things.. den he turn to his the other side n see again.. den he think siao liao lo.. some more i wearin white ma.. heng i nv wear my white spec.. hehe.. den he scold nnbcb.. he thought he saw things.. den he ask me.. i all de while in his car mehz.. is saw hurhur.. damn funny sia!! i cant stop laughin.. lol.
den omy back.. sat in intergra! my dream car.. den clear metre again.. some civic jio him.. shiok sia.. love to go out wit them... but den nw cant go jb wit them le.. coz i on alert stand by.. SIANZ! fuck ns man.. cb..
damn alzy to upload photo.. anybody can teach my short cuts? thx...
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1:24 PM
Saturday, September 26, 2009
finally after so many long years.. my shi fu is married.. damn happy for him.. although juz nw i go for his weddin dinner damn shag.. coz nt enough slp. but i stay awake thru out. went there wit my esss de students n han zhang n gabriel.. kind of long nv see them le.. took some pics wit jay.. but den i nw damn lazy to upload.. nt in a gd mood also.. next time den upload ba.. jay.. i wish u happiness kk!! hope i can faster carry ur baby.. hehe..
this few weeks.. i damn emo sia.. or i should say mood swing.. my temper damn jia lat sia.. fuck.. damn stress up.. juz feel tt a lot of things i nv do well.. things tt i should do i nv.. a lot of things in my heart.. also dono hw to let it out.. stress stress stress... =(
i super damn broke le sia.. cb.. keep on lend my bro money.. den i myself eat shit lo.. i damn unhappy abt this.. nt i don wan help him.. but i m in ns lehz.. the pay is like so fuck sia.. den i still lend u,, some more i lend is nt a bit.. is almost 1/3 of my pay la. i muz pay my phone bills this all.. den i need eat n smoke.. go out lehz?? haiz.. i damn unhappy sia..
somehow.. some where.. i feel damn lost.. i donno wad is happenin to me...
sry to all those i lost temper at.. hope u can forgive me. i donno hw to explain to u wad am i thinkin nw..
theres something i regret nw sayin or nt doin.. i really deeply regret.. i thought it was juz nth de.. but as time pass by... it affected me a lot.. i hate ns for takin my time away.. thus makin my losin my happiness.. i don wanna be a bad guy.. so i juz stfu can le..
actually gt alot of things wanna say out de.. but den i don wan let pple know.. maybe i should make another blog den say out all my things ba.. slpy sia.. but don wanna slp.. tue my atec stage one start le.. damn sian lo.. 9more mths to ORD.. zzzzzz...
actually wanna thx my medics frens.. for makin my life brighter in my ns days.. without them.. i think i will do stupid things lo.. i am always happy when wit them.. but when i am back at my coy line.. i feel damn so lonely.. onli when i go medical centre de time.. i feel alive sia.. tts show hw much impt am i when i am in my coy line.. onli when pple is hurt or need medic.. tt is when they wil be nice to u... MF!!! sick n tired of this kind of pple.. juz cant wait to see them suffer when i use needles on them..
argghh......!!!!!!! going mad le la... fuck! no money.. no love.. no freedom.. n nth to do!!!!!!!! ARRRRGGHHHH........ wtf is wrong wit me man.,., damn it..
ciaos.. EE
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2:17 PM
Friday, September 04, 2009
hi all! hmm.. had the ride of my life on thur!! haha.. first time sit my dream car!!!! damn happy when i had de chance.. den something happened when i was in de car.. gt one colt suddenly pass by us when at ecp.. going fast.. i say fast ar.. nt very fast.. den my dream car driver.. see him like so rush time.. den we also wan to rush time le.. haha.. he chase.. within sec overtake him le.. n guess the meter go hw much.. he cleared meter.. de most is 180km/h.. den i guess gt go till 200plus ba.. feelin sebei song ar!! first time sit my dream car den go so fast!! hahahaha... de fastest i drove was 150 nia.. on bike was also 140 150 like tt.. was super happy.. den my bro n sky keep sayin my sua ku!! LOL.. i don care.. i still damn happy juz thinkin abt it..
hmm.. donno y i been quite unhappy at hm recently.. kind of like becoz of a little thing den get damn irritated.. most jia lat de is my 2nd younger bro.. juz hear his voice den i will become hot de.. he is juz fakin irritain.. i always wan to lost my temper on him.. but i juz don wan ltr become till i really beat him up.. donno y he juz fakin juz behave de.. ccb.. talk also cant talk wit manners.. wonder hw his ife will be sia.. cb.. stop dreamin n wake up la.. stop being a fakin useless thing la.. talk to u so many time but u donno hw to think de..
money is also another issue.. i don understand.. it seems a lot of pple coz of money prob.. make it till like so big.. y sia.. i gt pple owe me money.. here n there.. but i nv really chase.. unless i gt money prob.. n i always get de reply is they no money.. den i also nv say anything.. money onli wad.. i know is fakin impt.. but aren't relationship/kinship/friendship more impt? haiz..
luck is nt gettin any better.. it seems to be gettin worst ba.. lady luck.. whr r u.. come back pls.. i need u..
well.. juz receive a sms from alvina dearest.. she juz told me she attached le.. haiz.. is it too fast le? damn worry abt u de sia.. silly bestie.. wish tt ur this time will be a successful de kk.. actually i kind of guess damn soon u will be attached le.. my sixth sense also told me.. well.. i think i guess de guy is whu also correct ba.. haha.. also gd la.. wan u stay happy!! no more emo le kk.. haha.. last time is we both emo.. so jia lat.. nw onli i emo.. gd gd.. haha.. meet up asap!! gt lots of plan comin up... =) take care buddy!!
still waitin for de time when my life will go up instead of down again.. up up up up up up up !!!!!!
ciaos......... EE
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5:13 PM
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
guess wad.. things r back to number one.. back to myself onli.. lol.. also gd la.. nv knew tt i know so many cb bitches..
don blame me if u see a diff part of me.. tts it le.. take me for granted.. pua ni n bei ccb.. u think funny ar? all my life i keep kanna eat.. i had enough le ok..
well.. enough for all the bullshit part.. nw happily enjoyin my time.. gonna get my bike n car... cant wait to be on de road legally... n when i make it.. don u ever regret la..
wooooo~!~~~~ sebei song ar!! nw i know de meanin of fresh air sia... lol.. MC for 7 days... hahaha.. at hm slack slack n slack..
cant wait to get pay n play!!!!! alot of things in mind for me.. donno whu will be de lucky one to enjoy wit me.. =) gtg le.. take cares!
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1:07 AM